I Miss You Like Crazy

I miss you like... really crazy. I have no idea what I have to do to meet you again. In a dream? NO. I want to meet you in REAL LIFE. Can I? God, can you hear me?

No one can explain how ache my heart was when I know you're gone. Gone from this world. You're my only motivation to live in this world. Do you see how much I miss you right now? When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you. Its like the whole world was end in second when I know you already left me here.

I'm like the crazy idiot when in airport.. On the way to meeting your body, without your soul anymore. Crying all the way.. Other passenger will probably think I'm a crazy girl that just breakup with her boyfriend thats why I cry a lot. I can't explain how I feel when I have a call that telling you already pass away. Feel like my whole world end in a second. I always feel scared whenever there is a call from our family.. Cause I know it means there is something wrong with you in there..

I still remember the last time I see you when you are still awake, not in a coma.. You smile at me, the smile is different than your usual smile. I can't forget that smile. I won't forget that smile. I have no idea it will be the last smile you give that smile of yours to me.. And the last time you hold my hand when I want go back to Malaysia again. You hold my hand even when you're in a coma.. I'm shock too, cause normally you have no reaction to anything.. But when grandma say.. "Look who's here.. the daughter that you love the most. She have to go back today, can you please wakeup to say goodbye to her?". And all people in the room broke in tears, including me. I've never seen my grandma look so hopeless before. My heart hurts. I feel pain, I can't be there for you at your crucial moment. I'm terribly sorry. What you have to know is I really love you no matter what.

Sometimes I think there's no need to maintain my health, anyway I will be happy if I can follow you more faster. I feel like there is no need for me to keep alive as you already gone too. And I keep doing things that will ruin my body, my health. Keep doing all those things so I can be sick and could follow you as soon as possible. But then I realize, it will causing a problem to another person.. And make another person worry about me.. I'm sure you will feel the same too.. Right? So for everyone sake, I will do my best to make everybody proud of me and not worry about me. Take my words. I will make you smile from there. Don't worry, I will be okay.. Keep guiding my path and remind me if I do something wrong, okay?

See you.. Daddy.. And I love you.

Being Short

I get this title idea from Audrey blogspot which is malaysian girl that is famous for her blog along with her famous blogger friend Chessie, Xiaxue and QiuQiu. Her blog is my currently favorite website that I have been reading everyday as I don't have anything to do also haha.

So as what the title said, its all about being short. I don't have any idea since when my body shrink into a midget. When I was a little kid, I used to be the second tall people among my siblings.

If you don't know which one is me, I'm the right corner with that pervert smile -_-. But THEN... I see my currently height right now is.. *sigh*

Most of people who meet me will say why are you so short eh? And I just like.. don't care. Even though I actually really care and I try many possible things to make myself more taller and all failed T_______T

And here come the sad part..

-________________________-

I mean, look at the picture!! I'm okay with being short, but the thing is.. my body is tend to be widen to left and right which means I tend to get fat very easy but also tend to get slim very easy too. . Another disadvantage is other people tend to make joke about how short I am!! Audrey post about being short make me feel I'm the lucky girl now hahaha (I feel you).

What does she say? I will recap in here now..

1. First of all, you’re a girl and girls are not expected to be tall anyway.  It could be worse; you could have been a guy.  Do you know how hard short guys have it! (see, this is how you be optimistic)

(To short guys: sorry I don’t know how you feel.  But if you feel bad, look at it this way.  At least you’re a guy!  You don’t have glass ceilings at work places and gender discrimination!  You will also never be susceptible to vaginal mutilation.  And less likely to contract HIV I think)

2. Second of all, being short is an ice-breaker.  Seriously.  I suspect people have greater propensity to feel kindly towards shorter girls.  Say, if I make a joke about my height, it always gets a laugh, and people may add on to it and people bond over that (making jokes, not over my height)  And if they get closer to me, I realize that people tease me for being short affectionately, not in a bullying way.  I don’t see how is that a bad thing.

3. Shorter girls tend to be cute.

4. Everyone (male and female alike) feels protective over small girls.  They’ll let you squeeze to the front of a crowd without glaring at you too much cos you won’t block their view.  They’ll help you open your canned drinks wtf.

5. You will always look young.  Cannot think of a better reason than this.

6. People remember you.  Would you rather be remembered for being short (and cute) or forgotten?  Once a bouncer at a club in Miami didn’t believe I was over 21 although I had ID.  He told me I had to jump up and touch the sign before he’d let me in WTF so I did.  The key is to not take yourself so seriously and you’ll be fine.  The bouncer loved it!  He laughed and let me in, and looked out for me afterwards to say bye. 

Lolol! This post made my day!

-The End-

Traumatic

Just realized I have some trauma about some kind of things. Like when I'm driving and somehow there is a person riding a motorbike behind my car and wearing a jacket and helmet, my heartbeat will beating so fast and my hand shaking. Thanks to someone who give me such a traumatic feels. I just realize this when I'm at my hometown. I go out alone and whenever I see someone behind me riding a motorbike with helmet and jacket I will constantly scared. That feeling.. can't describe with anything.

And one more thing is whenever I heard a worship song. It will remind me of something I don't want to remember cause it just make my brain to repeat all the memories, yes.. sad memories.. the most sad memories in my life :'). So whenever my Ipod shuffle into some worship songs I will just skip it. I will listen to the song whenever I feel like want to remember that memories..

Kiehl's Creamy Eye Treatment with Avocado Review

Ingredients: Aqua/Water, Butyrospermum Parkii/Shea Butter, Butylene Glycol, Tridecyl Stearate, Isodecyl Salicylate, PEG-30 Dipolyhydroxystearate, Tridecyl Trimellitate, Persea Gratissima/Avocado Oil, Isocetyl Stearoyl Stearate, Propylene Glycol, Dipentaerythrityl Hexacaprylate/Hexacaprate, Sorbitan Sesquioleate, Magnesium Sulfate, Phenoxyethanol, Hydrogenated Castor Oil, Sodium PCA, Ozokerite, Metylparaben, Tocopheryl Acetate, Disodium EDTA, Isopropyl Palmitate, Copper PCA, Ethylparaben, Butylparaben, Isobutylparaben, Propylparaben, Zea Mays/Corn Oil, CI 75130/Beta-Carotene.

This product is not for those people who want to reduce their wrinkles or eye bag thingy. This eye treatment just give you a moisture look so your under eye won't look dry. I use this quite a long time and it still remain so much until now. How I use it? I just put like a dot under my eye with the ring finger and dab it all over the under eye area. Every little penny is worth it. Just give it a try! ;)

Albion Review

ALBION, founded in 1956, is one of the largest and most prestige cosmetics Japanese brands in Japan. It is claimed to be the most preferred skincare brand among Japanese cosmetic users. It has won numerous awards including “Hall of Fame” for their emulsion, lotion and oil. ALBION is proud to maintain a Top 10 Ranking in Japan department stores.

ALBION carries 4 signature series that range from EXAGE, INFINESSE (not available in Singapore yet), EXCIA and EX-VIE (the highest range). And 2 additional whitening series underEXAGE and EXCIA separately.

ALBION is probably the first in the beauty industry to introduce first whitening product “Milk Lotion White”, which was created in 1965.

ALBION is also famously known for its signature toner – Skin Conditioner Essential.

ALBION believes that to achieve a healthy and beautiful skin, our skin metabolism has to run smoothly. Formulated with original ingredient “concentrated Coix lacryma-jobi (Job’s tears) extract”, Skin Conditioner Essential is able to enhance skin’s self-recuperative capacity, restore metabolic rhythm to a normal state, and keep skin in healthy condition.

Action on skin :

• Corneous cell metabolism regulation (Deeps metabolic rhythm normal)
• Anti-inflammation (Suppresses inflammation and wards off problems)
• Whitening (Curbs melanin production)
• Antioxidant (Eliminates free radicals)
• Immunoregulation (Restores immune function and puts skin in healthy condition)
• Moisturization (Enhance moisture retaining ability)

Albion Essential Skin Conditioner improves problematic skin, regulates and improves skin metabolism, calms redden skin and prevents skin roughness and invasion of pimples.

Albion Essential Skin Conditioner contains Job's Tears which is a healthy ingredient for skin, it can help beautifying and whitening skin as well as getting rid of acne. It catches the best moments of skin and regulates all the problems which give rise to less perfect skin.

How I use it:

For the first bottle until 3rd bottle I use it with the special cotton pad which you can separate into 5 piece for each giant cotton pad (Facial Cotton-L). Things you need to do is just splash the conditioner into the cotton pad and then separate the cotton pad into 5 pieces and put in the area on your face that you wanted to.

Until I run out the cotton pad and I just lazy to go to the store which is far away from my place so instead of spending money to go there I just make a brilliant idea which is just splash that conditioner thingy into my face instead lol. Save money and save the conditioner also, I'm so genius haha.

I have been using this quite a long time and this product is amazing I tell you! It makes your face supple and plumply. My face before was not dry and not oily, I mean.. in between of that two. And after using this, my face become... tadaa.. oily -_- haha. Because it gives too much moisture into my face and my face just can't handle that moisture but then I still loving it!

At EXAGE, it is called “Base Water”. When Base Water wells up like a spring from beneath the skin and continuously circulate, every cell is washed with this ripple of moisture, making the skin more translucent. And this leads to ‘self-moisturizing skin’ that is filled with the ultimate in dewy youthfulness.

EXAGE is formulated with 3-point strengthening approach : Base Water Supply Capacity, Base Water Circulation Capacity and Moisture Retention Capacity.

By proactively making “Base Water” (the origin of moisture) well up and promoting its circulation throughout the epidermis, the skin’s moisture retention capacity will be ensured. A fresh and supple skin can be attained by thoroughly circulated Base Water which contains plenty of nutrients needed to keep a healthy skin.

EXAGE also contains active moisturizing ingredients such as Organic Sambucus Nigra Flower Extract, Acorus Calamus Root Extract, Black Soybean Peptides, Red Wine Yeast Extract and Cholesterol Derivative.

How I use it:

I put one and a half pump into a cotton pad and spread it all over my face. Overall I like the Exage Milk range more because the Exage White Milk version is more thick rather than the normal version but after all, this product never break me out at all which is a good result. And I notice my face looks more whiter and balance than before, as I have those redness face before and now become more radiant :D

Oh and for those people who live in Malaysia, you can purchase it through Desense Beauty.

Address:
29, Plaza Danau Desa, Jalan 4/109F, Taman Danau Desa, 58100 Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
Tel: +603-79879133

Or you can check out their facebook at http://www.facebook.com/pages/Desense-Beauty/166104046733231

Last Semester

Still can't believe next semester will be my last semester in VU (amen). Miss all the memories since semester one. When I don't even know what the heck assignment is, when I don't even know a single person in college while the other seems to know each other already. I miss all people in the picture below!

When we don't have any idea how to do Business Law assignment.. what we do? Camwhoring!

Margaret Churcill birthday

Which one is the birthday girl? Definitely the one with water all over her clothes haha!

The picture above is when me and my friend making a mixture to splash it to our birthday friend haha! (it was fun). And end up the mixture (which consist of sand, butter, egg, coke etc) got stuck inside my eye -_-. Luckily I can get rid of it phew~

Having buffet at Jogoya

Relaxing time

resulting to.. first hangover -__-

Labil centil

Doing some assignment project

Resti birthday

Diva birthday

Onpanit birthday

Another random picture

I'm sooo gonna miss all those moment! :')